Day 10 of the 30 Day Challenge

Discuss your first love and first kiss.

Never been kissed and never had a first love.

I’ve only loved one person and it was my best friend. He didn’t love me back and it turns out he is gay. How original

I know my time will come and I can’t wait!

Michael Jackson’s Memorial

Hi.

I just stayed up all night to watch this special event. I truly want to make a tribute post about Michael Jackson and I am still working on it.

In the mean time I just want to say that seeing his kids at the service made me cry so much. It would be the worst thing to lose a parent that young. I just want to hug them and make it better for them. I hate children being sad and alone. Not like they are alone as they have a lot of family but it still breaks my heart for them.

And at the end of the memorial, when Paris Katherine Jackson said:

“I just want to say ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine,” she said, as her relatives surrounded her. “And I just wanted to say I love him so much.”

That just made me bawled my eyes out. I could feel her pain. I don’t think anyone in the world who was watching that did not cry.

Paris Katherine Jackson saying a few words at the memorial

Also when Jamian Jackson sang “Smile”, I thought that was the most perfect song to sing at the memorial. I have never heard it before but it has become one of my favourite songs now. It was so beautiful! Before that though Brooke Shield said “Smile, though your heart is aching”. I think that is the most beautiful quote I have ever heard. I am so awestruck.

Here is Paris Katherine Jackson saying her tearful goodbye.
Embedded video from CNN Video

I Hate Valentine’s Day

Hi.

New movie from Nia Vardalos and John Corbett, who both starred in My Fat Greek Wedding are teaming up again in this new romantic comedy! Aka Chick Flick!

This movie looks rather corny and predicatable but I love these types of movies and I just can’t wait to see it!

Enjoy the Trailer.

Flanigans + Ramblings of a Romantic Idiot

Hi.

I went out last night with a couple of friends. Last time I went out with my friends it was the Saturday before my birthday and my friend got locked in a toilet cubicle. This time I asked him to not leave my side at the pub because I know my girlfriends do.

The night was pretty uneventful except a guy was trying to pick me up and tried talking to me for the first half of the night. Well that was kind of weird for me as I’ve never ‘hooked up’ or ‘picked up’ since I started going to the pubs, which is a few years now.  I know I should have talked him but honestly he was not my type. I know the saying, beggars can’t be choosers but I am allowed to have my standards, aren’t I?
I consider myself less attractive than most girls and I know that eventually I’ll have to lower my standards and just end up with any guy who shows a bit of interest in me . I am still young and I think I have a few more years where I can be picky and not go out with any person who wants me. Saying that, if I was still single when I’m 30, of course I will have to be realistic and just be less picky on things like looks. <— I read that back and I sound so shallow for a girl like me! But I do not apologise as I am just being honest about my feelings.

And in my situation I always thought when I meet someone it would be a romantic moment. Like for an example bumping into each other at a grocery store, picking up something at the same e.g. paper on the floor or something along those lines. Man I sound delusional and have seen too many movies. I just want something extraordinary to happen to me when meeting someone. Of course I want to the most romantic meeting to be between me and the guy who I marry but it would probably wont happen.

It’s Complicated

Hi These past blog entries have had a similar theme and I am not even sure why. I’m not in a relationship or anything like that. I guess it might be because it was Valentine’s Day and as usual I had no one. Not that I complained. I actually never celebrated one as I’ve never had a patner at this time of year.

Also the other thing that has been bugging me for the past day is that I think I got dumped by a guy from the internet that I have never met in real life. I don’t know if you can technicaly dump someone when you weren’t even going out in the first place. I’ll explain the situation.

I met the guy, lets call him Bill, it was from the many random sites I am a member off and we started talk from there. We then exchanged msn and keep talking all year. This must have been in 2006 and also 2007. Then we stopped talking in the middle of 2007 til early 2008. And everything was great and we have so much in common, whatever. So since the time I told him I might move to the Northen Suburbs (where i might move to) he was really nice and wanted to meet up. All of the sudden we were talking about sex and flirting and everything. I mean the guy is really nice and all but lets be honest I don’t like meeting people from the Internet. So I kept hinting for him to go out with other girls. He says he is big on the club scene and he always gets numbers from women at the clubs. I constently kept telling him to call them and meet up with them. But he just didn’t want to and he said i was his match and he knew we would make a great couple together. This freaked me out since I am not looking for a serious relationship.

So last week I told him again to call up those girls and he said I can’t believe you, you must not be jealous if you want me to call those girls. I asked why would I be jealous for? Just go have some fun. Then he didn’t directly say it but he basically said he wanted to be with me. I mean it’s just too full on. So I told him to not wait for me and go have some fun because I don’t know when I am moving up to the Northern Suburbs. So yeah i told him that and I was honest about my intentions.

Then last night he said he is over it and not interested anymore because he doesnt like games. I was totally fine with that as I want him to meet new people and not wait for me. But I am still about, ah how do you describe it…. ahhh I don’t know. I’m not upset about him being over me, it is just wierd not able to talk to him as he was a friend that i would talk to late at night everynight. It’s a shame. He was a really nice guy.

I just wanted to get that off my chest and do another blog entry

He’s Just Not Into You

Hi
I went to the movies to watch He’s Just Not Into You. It was an alright movie but it got me thinking about relationships and how men and women play games. I mean it’s pointless. Why can’t we talk to the person we are interested in and admit our feelings. On one hand if everyone did admit there feelings then there would be a lot of people getting hurt and rejected or in a good scenario there would be a lot more people getting laid.

I have not ever been in love, well maybe one sided love, and I sometimes wonder if there is someone for anyone. I just can’t grasp the concept of it. How can there only be one person in the world that can connect with you like no one else can. What if your true love died before you ever met them?

Or is it a reasonable statement to state that if you are the unlucky unfortunate soul who dies suddenly before they even had a chance to met their soul mate, does that mean you wouldn’t even had a soul mate to begin with because the cosmos/God/gods knew you were going to die young so they never made you a partner for life.

I am not talking about sex. Yes, you can have sex with anyone and anything. I am talking about once in a life time love of my life type love. I don’t even know if it exists. No one respects people like that any more. Maybe nobody ever did. My parents aren’t divorced and are still happy together I think. Well dad went bike riding to the shops on Valentine’s Day in the morning to get her fresh flowers, chocolates and both of them went out to have lunch together.

But now that the divorce rates are up to 50%. No wonder some people have stopped believing in true love. I guess it isn’t that much alive in the modern world where sex is the norm and love is the latter. But that doesn’t deter me trying to find it.